I'm feeling a bit depressed and unwanted lately. The job hunt is still on which of course means no one wants me in that way. I'm feeling older by the minute. No one is reading me anymore, probably because I"ve become so onesided and dull and meandering and depressed and it has seeped through into all my posts.
I'm just an angry, blue, broad lately and they are not fun people to be around.
If I could just get a job, get my house in order, lose those last bleeped bleep pounds, figure out what the heck my kids want from me, write something that people will want to read!
I'm stuck in a rut and can't get my car(cass) moving.
blech.
Posted by Rachel Ann at July 25, 2005 04:33 PM | TrackBackWe're reading, but it seems that everything's slowed down in summer. I do sympathize with you in your job hunt. Just took five years myself to get a two-year degree, and at my age it's useless anyhow as far as employment goes. Hang in there, there are better days ahead.
Posted by: susan at July 25, 2005 05:19 PMI understand the lack of creative juices for posting, I've had that many times, I take it as a sign I should wait until I feel like something really strikes my interest and then go for it. If I try to force posts it comes out bland and uninteresting (to me anyways).
I've also been in the unemployed-for-an-extended-time world before, and it doesn't breed creativity. The tension of the unknown and lack of funds gave me the exact opposite.
I hope everything goes well, I'm a fairly new reader, but I'm reading ! I've never had a big following so my 10 or so readers a day doesn't bother me at all. I'm not mainstream enough or weird enough I guess to draw the big numbers, OH WELL, I say!
Anyways, I've gone on enough, this could have been an actual post! Lol. Good luck
Posted by: Oorgo at July 25, 2005 07:56 PMFunny, I don't remember writing this post -- but I could have (minus the kids part)! I'm with you....in more ways than one. You're doing fine. The fact we can get up in the morning needs to be celebrated! I figure anything else done during the day is gravy. ;)
Posted by: esther at July 26, 2005 02:24 AMI'm still reading. I'm particularly fond of rutts.
Oh, you said "rut", not "rutt". Anyway, still reading. ;-)
Posted by: Jim at July 26, 2005 11:23 AMThanks Susan. This is just going to be a rather hairy summer for me I guess, until things are settled again. Until I know I have a set income coming in, rather than dribs and drabs...It would be okay if my dh's salary cut it, but it just doesn't, so really need me to get a job. I just have to hang in there a bit more I guess.
Mazel Tov on your degree by the way! You write fabulously.
Oorgo, my brain feels as if it is set to grey. Nothing but dust up there now. BTW, I really enjoyed your recent post on security and homelessness.
Esther; I guess we are related. Times are nuts aren't they? It seems I can't take a breath recently. Your blog is my "homeblog away from home" you are so spot on in what you have to say.
Jim: (Rachel Ann makes a mental note to purchase reading glasses for Jim. Nuts. I like nuts too. I guess that's why I enjoy reading your blog so much ;-). (Jim was my first blog friend. I'm here because of him. Not sure if he'd want to admit that connection :-).
Posted by: Rachel Ann at July 26, 2005 07:51 PMI still read; just not a big commenter. :) Hope the job market brightens up soon...
Posted by: pam at July 26, 2005 09:16 PMWow, Rachel Ann....I consider that the ultimate compliment! Thank you!
Posted by: esther at July 26, 2005 10:59 PM